I was born about 29\u00a0years ago, in a town at the gates of the great African Sahara. \u2028My town boasts the most exquisite race of ram that every year proposes again in its unique magnificence on Eid al-Adha (the lamb\u2019s offering feast day). The Koranic school for children was still compulsory: it was the space for the memorization of Qur\u2019an, the comprehension of its meaning, its writing and its accurate reciting. \u2028I used to go there every morning before going to the public school and each Friday afternoon after the big prayer in the mosque.<\/p>\n
As a good Muslim, I grew up reading the Qur\u2019an entirely each month. Qura\u2019an was my guide, when I was searching for a divine sign to pass a test, I used to open the Book randomly (sort of the tv series Charmed\u2019s Book of Shadows) and I found an answer, therefore relief.\u2028 Qur\u2019an was mub\u012bn<\/em>, that is clear. It had to have answers for everything and it did. Unfortunately, as it happens in fairy tales, my beliefs held out until I joined the adult word and discovered sexuality.<\/p>\n At University, still convinced that I had to wait marriage to have a sexual intercourse with a woman, I began to go through the male erotic perspective with other men (clearly it was an understandable excuse!). At the beginning, it was plain flirting on the internet, then I moved to the use of hands and after that of other parts of the body!\u2028 From time to time, I used to say to myself that I was still not ready when one of my exes wanted to go any further than a kiss.<\/p>\n After my first homosexual intercourse, I was morally haywire much more than emotionally because I didn\u2019t expect I\u2019d like it so much that I would like to do it again: I remembered the Furq\u0101n words (\u201c[The One] which separates the good from the evil\u201d: one of the names of Qur\u2019an) about Lut\u2019s people (Sodom and Gomorrah). At the same time, primarily because of some kind of anger for a religion that repudiated me, I went back challenging some statements of some sacred verses.<\/p>\n Years passed, I explored my sexual tastes and chose a boy to build a family with. Instead of a blind reading of the Qur\u2019an, I made a run of the various interpretations dropping out of the tradition ergo I became rebellious, the guilt lessened but a little sylph voice whispered in my head that I would fall right down the Sir\u0101t (the right path bridge that men will cross on the Judgment Day: falling down from it you end up straight in Hell… boom!).<\/p>\n Among the most interesting writings that I dug up on the net, there was an essay by Gerd R\u00f9diger Puin, a German scholar specializing in Koranic studies, named “Observations on Early Qur’an Manuscripts in San’a” and\u00a0published\u00a0in\u00a0Ibn Warraq’s “What the Koran Really Says: Language, Text and Commentary” (Prometheus Books 2002). I found something unusual, related to my doubts about some statements, for instance about the virgins promised to the believers.<\/p>\n I have to admit that a lot of equivocations were justifiably and unavoidably linked to my sexual orientation, so I asked myself: why, among the descriptive verses of the Paradise fruits and the celestial drinks in the Qur\u2019an we find the description of the female sexual reward? Why does He offer me smiling, lovely, willing and revirginazable women instead of chubby and funny blondish or brownish boys as I like them? \u2028In the article it was explained that the interpretation of the adjective regarding the \u201cbig-eyed\u201d women of Heaven, namely Hur al-‘\u012an, could mean quite another thing in Syriac, that is \u201cwhite grapes\u201d.<\/p>\n As a matter of fact, the author says that the Koranic manuscripts studied at Sana\u2019 show that:<\/p>\n “[…]\u00a0the Koran is a kind of cocktail of texts that were not all understood even at the time of Muhammad. Many of them may even be a hundred years older than Islam itself. Even within the Islamic traditions there is a huge body of contradictory information, including a significant Christian substrate; one can derive a whole Islamic anti-history from them if one wants.<\/p>\n “The Koran claims for itself that it is ‘mub\u012bn,’ or ‘clear,’ but if you look at it, you will notice that every fifth sentence or so simply doesn’t make sense. Many Muslims\u2014and Orientalists\u2014will tell you otherwise, of course, but the fact is that a fifth of the Koranic text is just incomprehensible. This is what has caused the traditional anxiety regarding translation. If the Koran is not comprehensible\u2014if it can’t even be understood in Arabic\u2014then it’s not translatable. People fear that. And since the Koran claims repeatedly to be clear but obviously is not\u2014as even speakers of Arabic will tell you\u2014there is a contradiction. Something else must be going on.”<\/p>\n I realized that the Qur\u2019an was not a chronological collection of clear texts passed down to Mohammad during his 23 years of prophetic mission and theopathic experiences, this means that taking human-written verses literally could have deflected and humanized divine ideas.\u2028 So I searched for the Qur\u2019an\u2019s linguistic origin and I came across the Seven Letters\u2019 theory: islamic scholars originally trace the verses\u2019 writing and reading back to seven different ways, not conflicting but still diversified in meaning.<\/p>\n Even more so, after the theological chaos exploded in my head, I decided to analyze the pressing and unclear topics of Islam and finally my repeated questions found brilliant answers, which made me ask myself the most frightening question: maybe \u2013 I said maybe \u2013 the real meaning of the Qur\u2019an is not the one they\u2019ve been instilling into us all our lives.\u2028 Maybe \u2013 I repeat maybe \u2013 this Qur\u2019an that I\u2019ve read thousands of times has been interpreted, at least partially, bad enough to make us loose the right path!<\/p>\n In that light, I decided to take up a different route, the one of the research for personal gain, to understand and comprehend.\u2028\u201cIqra’!\u201d: it means \u201cread!\u201d (but in one of the abovementioned seven letters means \u201cgather\u201d) and\u00a0it was the first order given to Mohammad and all the Muslim community of the world.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Lyas<\/strong> I was born about 29\u00a0years ago, in a town at the gates of the great African Sahara. \u2028My town boasts the most exquisite race of ram that every year proposes…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":32,"featured_media":12303,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[406,413,569,414],"tags":[600,1731,1732,717,1297],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12305"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/32"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12305"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12305\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12310,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12305\/revisions\/12310"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12303"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12305"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12305"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ilgrandecolibri.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12305"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\ntranslation by Ameni<\/strong>
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